Happy Mothers Day!!

I hope you all had a wonderful Mothers Day! I want to start off by telling my mother how much she means to me..and to be quite honest I don't know where to begin. She has been right by my side through thick and thin, and I mean THICK AND THIN! I wasn't the easiest child to raise that is for sure, and now that I am a mother I feel sooooooooo very bad! But she never lost faith in me and still to this day I am not the easiest person to have faith in, but she is always there. I want to thank her for showing me unconditional love, raising me with the gospel, being the VERY best example, and being my best friend! I love her so much, more than words could ever express! She always has the best advise about ANYTHING! If you ever need good advise call her! I also want to tell my big sister how much I love her, and what an example she is to me! She is the most patient person I have ever met! I love that quality in her! And my lil sis, she is so fun! I love to talk with her, she always keeps me laughing, and she is also such a loving and patient mom. My mom and my sisters are such good examples to me, and I thank them for that! I seriously have my doubts as to why I have been so blessed to have such a good family, and such good kids! I really don't deserve any of it! I love my kids more than anything, they have shown me the kind of person I want to be. Mothers Day is hard for me in many ways.. As some of you know Shad and I lost our first little boy, Payden, he was stillborn. He would be 6 years old. I always wonder what kind of a kid he would be, and I guess Mothers Day seems a little empty because I am missing a piece to my puzzle. I think my trial has made me appreciate my kids that much more. Gracie has been so fun! She is everything I could have hoped for in a daughter. She is so outgoing and full of life. She always keeps me laughing. Acen has been so fun. I only wish I would have had the guts to have him sooner! I love him and his little personality! I can't wait to watch him grow! I also want to tell Bev how much I love her. She is the best! She treats me like one of her own, and she is so kind to me. I guess I am pretty lucky! I truly feel blessed to have all of these wonderful people in my life, and the list goes on and on..I love you all and hope you all feel as blessed as I do today! Happy Mothers Day!:)